Just One of Those Days

Do you ever have one of those days where nothing goes right??? Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like you can't make anyone happy?? Do you ever have one of those days that you feel like you are letting everyone down?

Well, I had one of those days last week. I know it's kind of strange that I am writing about it a week later but I needed sometime to process the day and think things over.

I am a mom.....I am a working mom.....I am a full time working mom.......I am a full time working mom with guilt you can't even imagine. That day last week was probably the lowest I have felt since Caden was born. I had one of those days that I felt like I was failing as a mom and failing at my job. I have a really hard time with not being able to give 100% to everything in my life and now that I am a mom, I really can't give 100% to anything. I wish I could say that I can give 100% to being a fantastic mother to my son but that's just not in the cards right now. I have to live with the fact that I can only give what I can.

I struggle with the fact that I am missing all of those pivotal moments during the day with my son while I am at work. I struggle with the fact that I can't stay late to finish important projects at work. I struggle with the fact that I can't make everyone happy.

So when I feel like I am not giving it my all, I feel like I am disappointing the people around me!

With that said, last week I had a lot to consider with what is going on in my life. How do I change this feeling inside of me? How do I make myself feel better about the time spent away from my child? How do I make myself feel better about the time I spend at work?

I pondered it and pondered it all weekend and I came to the conclusion that I am doing the best I can do. I may not be the best mom but I am trying my hardest. I am working to provide a great life for my child. If it weren't for my job, we couldn't afford the amazing nanny that takes care of him everyday!

I have to learn to deal with the fact that the corporate world can be rough and sometimes not so working mom friendly.

So here I am, living, trying, struggling, working, loving, my life all at the same time!

I know that it will all get easier and my mommy guilt will eventually fade away but for the time being, I am going to have to wake up every morning and try my hardest to not be so hard on myself.

I know this is really depressing but I had to be true with myself and what better way than blogging about it for the world to see!

Any other mothers go through this? Anyone have any advise?

Thanks for listening!